I've begun this so that I might follow the advice given by Ranier Maria Rilke to young poets. That we must not avoid our emotions but that we realize them and embrace them in our solitude. And we will never know ourselves as writers until we do. And I have all these emotions: fear, anger, love, longing, confusion, and regret. I needed a place to unload them and embrace them. Hoping that I might find myself in my mental and emotional wanderings. Losing my dad has been really hard for me, so I started this LJ to kind of help me cope. It also keeps my boyfriend clued in when we're so far apart for most of the year. And hopefully link me to some more people who get me.